The first line of Matt Maher’s new song says “I woke up in darkness”. The first three words are my reality today. I woke up. The funny thing is… I didn’t know I was asleep.
Maybe it was a defense mechanism. Whatever the cause, I was sleeping. I had withdrawn from the world of sunshine to a place of darkness, a place of stillness, a place of quiet solitude.
Circumstances and situations piled on me suffocating me from the reality of life. Depression, sadness, anger and frustration blanketed me from the world of the living. In quietness I existed. Living, but not alive.
That’s when it happened. He called to me. I was lost so deep in my slumber that I didn’t hear His voice at first. Then He shouted. And the deafness that had overtaken me was broken. Light penetrated through the despair, and for the first time in a long time I breathed.
There is nothing so sweet as waking up, as breathing in and breathing out, as being alive, of being loved.
My husband, who has fallen away from God, was in the car with me this morning as Carrie read her blog on the air. We have been struggling in our marriage lately. As Alive Again was played, he reached over and grabbed my hand. A small, uncommon gesture to most, but it meant the world to me. I believe that this word, this song was just thing needed to nudge us from our sleep. Today, “Light penetrated through the despair, and for the first time in a long time I breathed.” Thank you Carrie, thank you KLRC, and most of all, thank You Lord. :)
By: LaTonya on November 10, 2009
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